No one gets it. No one will every completely get it. You will never be able to fathom the amount of love in my heart that has been cooped up for years- more desperate every moment to explode. Explosions in the sky, explosions caused by "why." Why is nothing pure like snow, like gold? Screw all this searching and wasting time. WHY can't I be surrounded by the pure air, the ocean air the purest air of all. I feel so trapped in these buildings, layers and layers of concrete but lacking concrete love and belief. Soon the layers will tumble down and all that will be left is the green and the ocean air to restore our faith in...realness. Reality. REAL. No one knows what that is.

the olive society

meet me in montauk

or somewhere in between

fools rush in

Cuantas veces me van a tener que romper?

cuantas veces voy a dejar que me pisen?

Soy la alfombra, y solo quise ser tu sombra

Mi cuerpo esta cansada

mis ojos no descansan

Mi mente esta enganada

y no se como escapar este laberinto.

Up.

lazy mornings with chloe, forcing her to love me. You'd think after I saved her life she would want to cuddle with me at least a little..but no :(

Lucas and I have taken the next step in our relationship and started a band.

Okay not really, but he rips it on the harmon.

Les tempts sont durs pour les reveurs.

My new favorite tumblr page.

everythingsbetterwhenyou're...

distancia

"Amor, cuántos caminos hasta llegar a un beso, ¡qué soledad errante hasta tu compañía!"

Saul Williams (Said the Shotgun to the Head)

"Have you ever lost yourself in a kiss? I mean pure psychedelic inebriation. Not just lustful petting but transcendental metamorphosis when you became aware that the greatness of this being was breathing into you. Licking the sides and corners of your mouth, like sealing a thousand fleshy envelopes filled with the essence of your passionate being and then opened by the same mouth and delivered back to you, over and over again - the first kiss of the rest of your life. A kiss that confirms that the universe is aligned, that the world's greatest resource is love, and maybe even that God is a woman. With or without a belief in God, all kisses are metaphors decipherable by allocations of time, circumstance, and understanding"

Pablo Neruda

Tengo miedo. La tarde es gris y la tristeza
del cielo se abre como una boca de muerto.
Tiene mi corazòn un llanto de princesa
olvidada en el fondo de un palacio desierto.

Tengo miedo. Y me siento tan cansado y pequeño
que reflejo la tarde sin meditar en ella.
(En mi cabeza enferma no ha de caber un sueño
así como en el cielo no ha cabido una estrella.)

Sin embargo en mis ojos una pregunta existe
y hay un grito en mi boca que mi boca no grita.
No hay oído en la tierra que oiga mi queja triste
abandonada en medio de la tierra infinita!

:]

I need to go far away from here.

Maybe back here?

explore the unknown

jaime bayly

“No, no he sido nunca romántico. Nunca me han gustado las canciones inflamadas de amor o las personas idiotizadas por romanticismo o la idea convencional del amor en la que hemos sido educados, es decir, que uno no puede alcanzar una cierta felicidad a solas, que ella esta siempre en la vida de pareja, en dormir con esa persona y mirarla embobado media vida. Soy bastante egoísta, me gusta estar solo, me parece cursi y penosa esa tradición tan nuestra que consiste en cantar a gritos que sin ti la vida no es nada, que cuando te fuiste mi vida se arruino, que yo soy un inservible o un bobo llorón si tu no estas, que si no vuelves me matare. Yo creo que la vida es mucho mas divertida cuando tu amante te deja o no esta, porque así tu puedes hacer lo que de verdad te de la gana.”

Lima, Dec-Jan

In Lima, on Christmas Eve they light HUUUUGE fireworks to celebrate baby jesus. Moreso than they light on New Years. I swear some of them looked like Disney fireworks.

I think the most fulfilling part about staying with Patti and the boys was being able to wake up to Lucas every morning (usually early, except when I was sick) and watch Barney with him while he ate his breakfast.

I forgot how funny Patricio is. He's turning into a rockstar.

Patti asked what I wanted my last meal to be. My answer: Aji de gallina y papas a la huancaina. MMMM. I think I gained 5 lbs in that one day alone.

Christmas day lunch was delicious as well. Arroz con pavo y ensalada de choclo. The corn salad was definitely one of the tastiest things i've ever had. Also a side of apricot sauce.

Necessary family photo.

Met a cool turtle..with my pato.

This is La Costa Verde. I paraglided over this beautiusness.

New Years eve.

Various objects for good luck.

Ano nuevo con daniela en Aura

Got to know the DJ a little.

Haaaaappy New year!

Pretty sure this photo could get me arrested.

Feeding baby goats.

HAahahahaha.

You bes believe I died.

Yup

Coloring with Lucas.

Bubble time.

Chatting it up with Mamama.

Back to reality.